digdigdig.

Understand that friends come & go.
Their are a precious few you should hold on too.
Work hard to bridge the gaps in geography and lifestyle.
Because the older you get, the more you'll need,
the people who knew you when you were young.

I gave Dig- Incubus to nicole on a card for christmas last year. And it's kind of been our song. I heard it at the Incubus concert (the acoustic verison to be exact.) First things first.... THEY WERE AWESOME! SO GOOD. Brandon is an amazing singer. I will always be a sucker for skinny rock boys with peircings& tattoos and loud awesome voices. If you sit down and listen to alot of Incubus's lyrics they are extremellyy poetic. They don't just have songs about fallin love, alot have to do with indiviuality. Again, just because their songs are poetic they still don't over complicate them. (big pet peeve, obv.)

Anyway, whilst listening to the wonderful acoustic version of Dig, I got to thinking. I'v gone back and forth with several friendships. Sometimes I'm closer with certain friends then others. This is summer I went from having a huge social group where I was always around at least three people, to being around one or two people, and more then three was an event such as Weeds night. This is the first time I haven't lived in a house with a bunch of people. (even though I enjoy this so much more) It was really hard at first, I felt like all I had was Nathan & Hassan. Which was fine, but I missed what I had. It has started getting alot better. But listening to Dig, I realize that this summer I have learned, quality is better then quanity. I'm forunate enough to have people to stick by me even when I'm not my normal self. I'm blessed because I still have friends from highschool & middle school who know my pre college past. I'm lucky enough to have made some of the most wonderful friends in college both in salisbury & when I moved home. I'm so happy that despite distance, I have been able to keep friendships that I can't believe I lived without for so long. Weather I see all these lovely people daily, I know they are still here. Through losing my mom, I learned who the people are that truely love me. And it didn't matter how much I saw them, their out pouring of love and affection meant/means so much to me. It used to make me sad when friendships would tetter and I felt like I wasn't as close with certain people as I wanted to be. But I realize that is life, everyone is at different points of their lives everyday and sometimes that is how things work out and it's not a bad thing. Because true friendship isn't based on how often you talk or see one another. It's based on trusting the fact you can depend on a friend for anything, trusting them to love you when you aren't being you, trusting them to help you back to that person, being able to call them in the middle of the night, and knowing the same applys on your end. I'm sure through out life I'll meet a bunch of new people and make other wonderful friends. But I'll never forget or stop being friends with the people I have now. It's always hard to keep friendships going when life is constantly changing. I've come to realize, I have all the best friends:) Even though we won't be staying in the same area forever, I hope to grow old with most of these people, and being able to look back on when...I got thrown from a golf cart, bonnaroo, cove beach, middle school, spring breaks, living together, sneaking into bars&fake ID's, the oldzoo/greenes apartment, all of us turning 21 and soooo much more! It's possible and despite how many new friendships I make in the future, I don't think any will compare to what I have now. And I will always want, what I have now.
no distance or lapse in time,
can lessen the bond of those,
who are truely presuaded by each others worth.